Life sucks

Life sucks.

From a huge loss comes some small gain.

Tarot Reading

Tarot Reading for 10/31/03:
Past: The Three of Cups, reversed
Present: The Nine of Cups
Future: The Seven of Pentacles

Past: Overindulgence.
Present: Satisfaction. A wish fulfilled.
Future: The beginning of great love and contentment.

Message for the Weekend:
As we find balance in our lives, our dreams and desires become attainable. Many of us are about to enter into a time of great happiness and fulfillment. New love relationships hold great promise.


Reading for 11/03/03:
Past: The Magician, reversed
Present: The Two of Swords
Future: The Eight of Pentacles

Past: Weak will.
Present: Indecision.
Future: Skill in material affairs.

Message for Monday:
Our own lack of determination is the only thing holding us back. We are skilled and talented, now all we need is a little motivation! We are advised to make a firm choice and stick to it.

(Both readings from Dawn Stevens)


It shall come to pass. I have the motivation and the determination to succeed.

Abandoned???

LOL Yeah, I guess I've partly abandoned this site. But I still return from time to time. :)

Goddess Quiz

One of the best known Celtic goddesses is Aine, Goddess of fertility, who is exceedingly friendly to men and worshipped for her powers of bestowing fertility, abundance and prosperity. She is said to have mated with several humans, having created a magical fairy/human race. Aine once stole an Irish Earl's cloak while he swam in a river, and would not return it to him until he agreed to marry him. You like guys, and love having them around. You love the high life, and have the tendency to judge a book by its cover.

What Celtic Goddess are You? (With pictures)
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Friday Five

Friday Five

1. What vehicle do you drive? maroon 92 Mustang

2. How long have you had it? since 1994

3. What is the coolest feature on your vehicle? I love the comfortable seats.

4. What is the most annoying thing about your vehicle? It's getting old and the mileage is high.

5. If money were no object, what vehicle would you be driving right now? a GTO, of course.

Starting Again

Oh, and if you want to read my latest journal entry, go here.

Contact me via the guestbook, or make a comment! I got rid of my email links. Too much spam.

I really hope to post more often in here.

Anniversary

Two years of (not)posting in this blog. Time has flown.

Lots of thinking, not much doing.

Do you ever feel like you just settled, because at the time there was nothing better? Do you ever contemplate what could have been or what might be? Have you ever met someone who seems to be truly your other half? Have you ever met someone who desires you and feels passionate about you? Have you ever ached so bad to be touched that you could die from the want of it?

I'm wondering these very things.

I cannot live my life wishing for something. I have to decide what I want and achieve it, no matter what the cost. I have to be true to myself. I cannot continue to lie to myself. I am content with the choices I made, but being content doesn't mean I'm truly happy.

Happiness is relative, I guess. It is awesome to be desired--that much I do know. We all desire to be desired. Is it possible to find love the way love is found in books? I thought not, but now I think perhaps it is possible.

Then again, maybe I'm just deluding myself.

Just another Wannabe

I've been away so long. I am a whiner and a wannabe. ugh.

Ok, enough self pity!

I'm so sick of the ranting and raving in the press. I feel like I've been lied to. I know I've been lied to, and I feel helpless to do anything to change the world. Like Rodney King said, "Why can't we all just get along?"

People are still reading this blog, and for that I thank you, even though I have been away for awhile. I do update frequently at my online journal, she utters not a sound, so you can always catch up with me there.

As far as my ongoing writing struggle: ugh. I guess I don't want it bad enough. How hard that was to admit! I just feel so uncreative. As a reader said, just sit down and do it. Write 'til there's nothing left--at least for that day. That is wonderful advice. I will practice doing that this week.

I have let other obsessions overtake me. I am interested in learning Welsh, doing altered books, stamping, reading voraciously... a neverending struggle to get my butt in chair. But as I said before, maybe, secretly, I don't want it bad enough.

BUT THAT'S A LIE!!!!!! My Monkey Mind says that. I do want it bad enough. A writer writes. I've been writing a lot in my paper journal. If the only writing I do is for myself, I will be happy with that.

Crazy News Articles

Since when are drugs good for you?

If only all authors could have their unpublished novels shoot to the top of the best seller lists! JK Rowling must be so proud.

This guy is just a moron!

Yes, cochlear implants should be covered by insurance, just as birth control pills and condoms should be.

Is this flimsy excuse going to be used to invade Iraq?

Journal update notice

Good, Blogger's working today. I've been busy with work and posting to my journal. Go check it out.